My body is finally fighting back. - urgent

[The Ryan (OP)]

Some of you may recognize me for those who don't I will post an intro eventually but I'm on the phone and this is urgent.

So I've been on quite the bender lately, shooting meth daily and meth/heroin speedballs very often for about a month. I tried meth for the first time a month ago and have only missed 1 full day since, which is where this story starts.

Well it really starts about a week ago. I do a large meth injection and my arm goes numb and tingly, muscles spazzing really bad on the arm I injecting into. This starts happening every injection, but of course I ignore it cuz I wanna get high. I start trying different veins, same result, the limb I shoot in goes numb, regardless of the substance. Even subutex alone, which I've been shooting daily over 6 years now, causes this, both arms, both legs, numb and tingly after injection. I try my jugular and voila, no ill effects. Great right? No.

3 days ago I decide I need a break from meth and heroin, no noticeable WD symptoms except the occasional brain zap. I do a shot of subutex in my jugular and nothing bad happens, until a few hours later. I'm out running errands and I get an intense sense of vertigo and dizziness. I figure it's dehydration. So I stop at a fast good restaurant and get 2 large powerade. Suck one down, now it gets scary. I get an insanely noticeable metallic taste in my mouth, start sweating profusely, heart beating harder and faster than it ever has, left side of body goes numb and tingly.  and I had done no meth that day, mind you.

I think I'm dying, I'm texting friends with the address I'm at telling them to send 911 if they don't hear from me in 30 minutes. I was scared as shit. Symptoms subside after about an hour, I drive to the hospital and sit in the parking lot, nothing crazy so I call out of work, go home and take some Benzos and lay down. Nothing else really happens that night, I don't inject anything else, start snorting my subs.

I wake up yesterday. Debilitating brain zaps every 2-10 seconds. I decide to cop some meth and smoke it, instead of IV it, as I'm scared shitless of using anything IV at this point. I smoke the meth and the brain zaps go away, I go to work and nothing bad happens.

Wake up today very dizzy and with minor brain zaps, take a few hits of meth. All is well.

So now it's been about 3 days since I've used any substance IV. I'm scared shitless to do so again I've been sniffing my subs, eating my Benzos, smoking my meth.

What the fuck would cause my limb to go numb regardless of the substance injected, I know I'm not missing. More important, what happened the other day? Minor stroke? Minor heart attack? Panic attack? I honestly thought I was dying. It was the scariest thing I've ever been through in my entire life.

I can't be hooked on meth (money, health, etc.) I have 3 days in a row off this week so I'm gonna see if I can stop. The second day of no meth was just, horrid, brain zaps every 2-10 seconds, they were completely debilitating, but I could not call out of work again.

So what are these brain zaps?

[Opus]

They could be small seizures. I get them in wd (ever since taking zoloft years ago) from many different drugs, but for me they're only annoying and they usually don't hang around long, they're not debilitating (i'm talking specifically about "brain zaps").

I had something like a phenibut overdose a few years ago and experienced like a time-skipping experience, I called them "brain skips" at the time I later learned that they were probably petit mal seizures.

You're toeing a line Ryan. You should find some help soon, IMO you probably need medical attention. Lots of minor wds can cause this, but IME it's never been anywhere near debilitating..

[St. Theresa]

Hey ry...this sounds bad, I hope you're serious about cutting this shit out of your life. Doesn't seem like fun,

I wish I could answer your questions, what you're experiencing sounds terrifying ... and if I were you I'd really do see a doctor, but I know you don't want to that, doesn't sound like you're in the best shape man. I worry about you.

[Zoops]

OMFG that sounds terrible, Ryan. Please just cut the meth out. You have benzos and subs, so it shouldn't be too much of a problem after you get about 20 hours of deep, restful sleep (in a row, that is).

I have been smoking crack and sniffing some dope for the comedown like once a week for the past couple months. The most recent time I got some money together (about 200-some dollars), which was last Thursday (two days ago), I didn't immediately run and get some. I really don't miss it, as long as I have some seeds, which I do. Working on the second quart of a 3 quart dose of PST as I write this.

I hear the high from smoking coke is similar to that of meth, but it's so very short lived, it's a different animal entirely.

I feel sad now.

Oh yeah I was going to say something about brain zaps. Are you familiar with SSRI W/D symptoms, Ryan?

Is that what you're describing, because that could be some sort of serotonin-like reaction from the meth. Makes sense to me. High doses of and prolonged use of meth can cause serotonin depletion, similar to the SSRI withdrawal syndrome. I know meth can fuck with 5HT for sure, and the use pattern you're describing leaves nothing to be imagined that this is occurring in you.

Oh and yeah, +1 on the whole going through Zoloft w/d, then getting brain zaps from other types of w/d too, specifically in my experience I got them when coming off EtOH whereas I had never had that happen before. I think SSRI's prime the brain in some way, and create permanent changes.

My mom's brain probably looks like Swiss cheese, because she's been on Prozac since the shit came out waaaaay back in 1988! (at least I think it was '88, but it was right when it was brand-spanking new on the market - she'd tried all the tricyclics, and maprotiline too, which is technically a tetra-cyclic but related chemically to the tricyclics, and also Trazodone, and Wellbutrin but finally got some relief from Prozac. Yes, it does help some people).

[nick]

I really advise you to find some professional medical help asap-rather than asking a bunch of well intentioned dopers on the web.

Seriously,medical help NOW.

Take care of yourself,man.

[The Ryan (OP)]

I'm honestly more worried about the heart attack/left side of body numb/metallic taste in mouth episode.

The brain zaps seen to be common in stopping drugs that boost serotonin.

[The Ryan (OP)]

I really advise you to find some professional medical help asap-rather than asking a bunch of well intentioned dopers on the web.

Seriously,medical help NOW.

Take care of yourself,man.

ER will chalk it up to drugs give me an IV for a few hours and let me loose with a 5000 bill.

[St. Theresa]

I really advise you to find some professional medical help asap-rather than asking a bunch of well intentioned dopers on the web.

Seriously,medical help NOW.

Take care of yourself,man.

Yes^^^this please ry


I left you a private message.

[Jega]

Do you have a primary care physician? I ask because the er would need to know if you have a dr for medication management afterwards,

No bullshit *spins chair around* You need a dr. and a diagnosis.

[Tony]

Brother Ryan,

Sometimes you got to hear the warning from life, God, your body, old friends... Please man, I been there with shooting those speedballs....

Drop the Meth and get checked out at the ER.. None of us can diagnose you man.. Too damn much is my guess.

We love you man. You are too damn young to die. Get help and have someone update us... Please...

Tony         

[sk8phaze]

Be safe Ryan, if u have the insurance or cash to see a doctor do it.

[Sand and Water]

Yes, please please listen to the advice about getting seen NOW.  Your symptoms (odd taste & one side of your body going numb) are really worrisome. When you add unusual elevated heart rate & rhythm, it's not something that should be dismissed by an ER.

Chest pain. & these symptoms could be a result  of anything from a clot to a stroke , MI etc. Explain your symptoms and don't leave until they run labs & tests.  I know it's really expensive, but there's no replacing YOU. If you can, please keep us posted ok?

[Morfy]

like others have said: go get checked out.

possibly, a severe infection from IVing dirty shit.  mi and cva (stroke) could be causing it as well.

doctors have the tests & diagnostic equipment & treatment to help you.

[Chip]

yes, please get professional medical help now.

this is an order !

using meth never did that to me but I did lose some smell/taste perception whilst using heavily and it hasn't got better despite being far more careful.

I am concerned for you.

[sk8phaze]

This is what harm reduction is all about, get a ct scan or an ekg or whatever you have to do, we've all lost way to many good people and we don't want you to be the next one. Please be safe and take care.