Drug Etymology, Ceilings, Points of Diminishing Returns or Expetative Dissonance

[Chip (OP)]

source: minds://127.0.0.1/bedroom/pc.4ma

I hope that all 4 people that use this website (I know who the MID's I am: Chip, Brian, Ray and Mike) will find this of interest because it's taken both hours and 40 years. Prep your DOC dose, get toasted and sit back and read 

Etymology: Junky

As a lifetime omni-drug user, i get to observe and dig deep into the mindset of some quite substantial subculural behaviour and customs of the various substance (ab/)users, whilst subconsciously getting to the root of their habits and making them feel better about the cause+effect of trauma+self-medication+fun+guilt, conflict of interests etc.

Yes, I often patiently probe and often, they're gonna end up in tears ! what a cunt, right ? you decide ... or a street pychopharmacotherapissed ?

Only 2 drugs stand out really stand out, those being the diametrically opposed opioids and opiates (Heroin etc.) and stimulants (Methamphetamine or METH etc.) and the other wildcard is the GABAergic range.

Gambling is a DA mimic and that is more like a Coke jag ... I have omitted this because i am still doing my testing and i'm still a GABA church mouse and not a proper Lab Rat for you drug cats but it's akin to steering a big ship ... more to come.

Now, I like the term junky and it has a lightly weighted and positive (+ve) valence to me because it reminds me of the guys who used to and still do find scrap metal and sell it to the junkyard to raise funds for the purchase of Heroin. Sure, some will mention the "sale of the grand-mother" and the urge to redose is so powerful, it is non-negotiable for almost everybody, most of the time. I respect that. Needles are just cost-effective.

However, the 'tweaker' assigns disdain to it; a heavily weighted negative (+ve) valence) and is the lowest possible insult to a fellow user or any human being, for that matter !

we're talking about selling both grandparents (perhaps the 'shoot/slam' something that works faster by smoking is representative of my own biases) and be so more likely to engage in prolonged delinquent stinkin' thinkin' by planning property crime  against fellow users to satisfy a ridiculously inflated reward system that was running fine for 4.5 billion years and then somebody shifted the expected REWARD markers all the way past 770 (and upon withdrawal, lowered the PENALTY misery markers proportionally) up by a factor of at least 7 times to 11 (don't quote me but you get the idea)

It's also a paradox and it's fucked up.

They will often addict other people for all the wrong reasons. NEVER DO THAT ! (but yet some still do and age may not be an obstacle, ya feel me ?)

Neuroplasticians (or Neuropolymerists, as i prefer to call them) will no doubt attest to this being a likely genetic transposition affecting transcription that will be passed on to the next generation, also.

I have never seen more bad and conniving behavior and mistrust associated with what i just mentioned than any other drug.

Love me those sweet opiates !

Drug Ceilings

With Gabaergics, Anasthetics, Full Agonist Opi's, Cocaine, there is no ceiling and nor is there with Alcohol (as would be Cocaethylene etc.)

Partial Agonists-Partial Antagonists like Buprenorphine have the lowest ceiling and the safest OD profile of any analgesic drug or opioid that i have ever known.

METH has a negative ceiling as the more you take, the more lousy (on the alternating downward cycle  (~ve) valence), the worse you will feel as side-effect turns you from euphoria to *shock* and all things psychopunitive.

Expetative Dissonance^Wiki or the Point of Diminishing/Diminished Returns

Over 240 mg of Morphine is like pissing in the wind and can still die if you keep going but, even worse, you won't get any higher.

If you take METH for a few days then you can start at 20 mg. (a drug-naive  and end up at 1000 mg., having

My Usage Profile Snapshot Today

So, after a fucked up and messy but deep neuroregenerative, neuroprotective and physiorestorative 3.5 hours of REM sleep from some GBL (yay, i found some) i figured that would be equivalent to about 2 nights of normal sleep.

This was after the night before of low-dose (10 mg.) Temazepam, typical-dose of Dothiepin HCl (a defunct TCA for depression and sedation), (1.5 slightly-overdose by 1.5 G) 5 G beta-phenyl-GABA (or Phenibut) and the nicest DA (Dopamine) attenuator (Olanzapine causes RLS with 3-4 half-lifes or HALF-LIFE-DAY-NO-BLUES-YAY-DAY) namely, 125 mg. of a 1940's PSYCH medication that was the forerunner to CPZ/Thorazine/Chlorpromazine/no-more asylms-or-straight-jackets-or-LOBOTOMIES) medication called Promethazine (or Phenergen).

During the day, I made my own crude racemic^Wiki mixture of the right mirror molecular image/most active or d(extro)-METH and the left mirror molecular image/inactive(cures stuff noses but has a rebound stuffy-up effect on cessation)l(evo)-METH enantiomers^Wiki by combining two sweet bags of !

This fine tuning of one's METH can result in a low-kidney and body load (they say 70% dextro and 30% levo is the bomb!).

Some Quality Advice

I always drink HUGE amounts of water to flush out the kidneys as End Stage Renal Failure killed my friend who started on Liquid Methedrine Ampules when it was the wonder drug of way-back-when.

The Paradox: that's right - I spend a fortune, risk my social and legal standing to acquire the drug ONLY to diligently excrete up to 50% of the source drug (not broken down having gone a catabolic process (due to it's dual action as a DA Reuptake Inhibitor) and nor has it been subsequently reassembled as a metabolite (PMA or PMMA).

Yes, I sweat, cry and piss half of my multiple-risk-drug down the crapper ! Is that stupid or what ? 

You will develop the irreversible GABA apoptosis^Wiki and DA neurotoxicity and associated possibly permanent neurotransmitter dysfunction and certain cell death !

Do you want to end up like me and be rolling that die ? I have devoted my body and brain to this website so it's for a good cause.

NEVER TRY METH BECAUSE IT'S, FOR SOME OF US, WE WILL NEVER, EVER STOP and if we are forced to, may remain depressed, angry and broken until death!

[LadyKalma]

Hey chipper, i'm sorry you're not enjoying your drugs these days enough to make up for the risks. That being said, I can see how writing this might take hours, but what took 40 years to figure out here?

[Chip (OP)]

Au contraire - i am HUGELY enjoying them.

It's when i'm not taking them that the trouble starys - sound familiar.

I have an amazing paradox of a life.

The 40 year so far pursuit is understanding the nature of exogenous hormones and neurotransmitters.

GABA is our inhibitory neurotransmitter and i after messing with A and B subtypes and their subunits, i still don't have a handle on it like i do with Opis and Stims.

Drugs love me too. I know they miss me and the feeling is mutual.

Got some in a new time safe, some in the mail to myself, some to be released by a third party in a few minutes and some sitting in a vial.

Whateverday's is looking sweet. Got my psuedo AI House Music Selector playing house and two lasers aimed at the walls and bed.

Into Deep Space, Bouncy, Deep Tech and Soulful House sets on tap. I also invented and automated the DJ Set Jockey job (SJ).

Got my DJ mixers, Extensive Digital Effects Units, Real Time Spectrum Analyser, 1000+ Watts with the PA system, Subs (no, woofers opiophiles) and tweeters and it's all synced to the best music somewhat in. See pics.

Got my best lady buddy down the other end of our house and she's a Data Scientist / High Distinction Masters of IT person and i am writing AI Behavioural Best Outcome Prediction Psuedospecifications for the jobs of the future.

Gonna fortify my red wine with a bit of extra GHB (2 ml.) smoke about 25 mg go-fast-get-smart.

Got plenty of cigs.

Why do you think i am anywhere but in rapture ?