Hey! This is a great idea, thank you QoD. I remember you from the 'phile and either didn't know or didn't remember that you were gay, either.
I identified as bi until about 3 years ago. I thought I was bi. I recognized my attraction to women when I was about 13/14 but I never truly questioned my feelings about men until well until adulthood and I had mostly been with men and I guess I had just accepted that sexually it would always be underwhelming. Once I finally saw things clearly I felt stupid. It was *never* lacking with women whether it was a onetime thing or a relationship. It was whole and full and real, I actually felt the feelings I had heard about emotionally and sexually whereas with men it was like I was detached and going through the motions. I have been raped & assaulted more than once and I just figured it was something broken in me that didn't allow me to enjoy any type of romantic attachment fully....but naw, I'm just gay as hell! ;P. I'm happy now too. Although it'd be nice to get out there and date before I hit 35!! It's hard to meet women.
Anyway, I'm glad to be back. This site used to feel kind of empty to me compared to opio but now there's more going on and I miss some of the connections (friend connection not drug connects lol) I made on opio. I don't plan on disappearing anytime soon like before when I hadn't really warmed up to this place yet. I remember all of you from opio, QoD, St. t and of course Puppy- we spoke when Chem died. RIP