I'm at that place that all of us MMT patients experience from time to time....
I want off, I'M DONE.
Fuck all side effects, the sweating (and now it's just in time for winter) the ups and the downs and the all-the-fuck arounds.
Anyway, I've been trading doses, for xanax (another culprit), then, coming up short on doses... And then and then and then.
Anyway, cut to the chase, I've been out for two days, half dosing for an entire week and a day (8 days, Duh right?) and just yesterday took to Lope for relief.
I never turn to Lope.... Never took much stock in it truthfully. But tried it out anyway.
I've got the benzos for the tempestual storm of emotions within. And the lope has knocked the edge right the fuck off my kick.
I guess I'm asking/wondering if this is a finite sense of relief from the lope? As I plug away at it, will the lope begin to lose its effectiveness?
The plan would be a slight amount of methadone along with a lot bit of lope.
Then bupe once off the done for a good spell.... Maybe two weeks.
I want off, now.