Dystopia- Leaning With Intent to Fall
I'm too impatient to figure out how to put a youtube video on here because I'm on a combo of heroin, methadone, cocaine, and klonopin as of right now. However, here are the lyrics. (I'm sure more than a few of you on here can relate)
--"so how much heroin are you going to buy?"
-"10 bags'....' I really shouldn't I should buy 5....
so that can get me through the day and if I buy ten
I'm going to wind up doing ten
the last time I had three hundred bucks I shot it up in five hours
I don't want to do that this time so i'm back out in the street you know what i mean?'"
__('''''"you know you got to be on it 24/7* and you got to rob and steal and -you rob and steal
you do things for a bit__((you know))
that you'd never otherwise do
you know, I've never been a thief,
I've never been a liar
I've never stolen from the people that i've loved...but you know, now i....do....
that's why i don't have anyone in my life"''''')______("i....i really do care for the people a lot..i actually...have a lot of feelings for them they're really good to me..umm...they're starting to catch on..they know something's wrong because $2,000 worth's a week is a lot of money..so they know something is wrong..and you know they told me last night that all they're money's gone..that they can't give me no more money, ..because that they've just got enough money to pay rent and stuff, man...
so..i took some things from them...i could have took a hell of a lot more; but that's just..j.justifying..to make myself feel better..what i did was wrong .
and i know it was wrong .
one day at a time
you know i keep on telling myself i gotta get my-"detox"- or i gotta get into a "program" &
if i don't it's going to be too late
"dead"
or i'm going to be in "prison"
it's going to be one or the other...
you don't know when or,..
you don't know where....on the path i'm going...
Lyrics:
Another friend found dead in the street
A painful death of self-defeat
The reaper killed by the seeds that were sown
Another mother destined to be alone
See the world through sunken eyes
Infected soul, infected brain
Feel your flesh turn stone cold
And endless downward spiral of misery and pain is what remains
You used to do that shit for fun
A steady march of slow death
With no intention of turning back
Feel the pleasure, you taste the pain
Getting high just to get sick again
You don't seem to be having much fun
Wake up,
Wake up from this lucid dream
Nightmares,
Nightmares of what the future brings
See your spirit fly with the angels
Fall from the heavens
Fall through your fingers
You say you're hurting?
I'm hurting too
Am I to love you?
I hate the things you do
You say it's over, you say you're sober
You''re fucking clean,
And then you fucking OD?
So you chose to take your life away?
Suicide is an easier way
See the world through sunken eyes
We tried to change the path you were on
Feel your flesh turn stone cold
A night alone, a spoon, a needle in the arm, and now you're gone
Can you climb out of this hole that you've dug?
I wish I could help you but I can't
Watching
Through my eyes is misery
Dying
In your eyes, that's all I see
See your shadow
Fall from the heavens
Fall through your fingers
Fade into nothing