When addiction gets too much...

[tui (OP)]

Thanks TTA & EMC!

I will prob not be sticking around here as drug talk isn't my thing these days. But it is so cool to see you guys and other old friends pop up on my screen. The forums were super helpful for me during my addiction, it's amazing how deeply you can connect with people online. So good to see the community is still going strong.

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[Anti-hero]

The planets must be all straight I was talking about you the other day. I am so happy for you. I got 9 months well I'm really not counting I just don't want that shit any morr. I just want what God put on this earth to get clean. I asked him and it was granted.
  Yes there is hope if we cane get the money or of the situation. Its such a shame that its subs or methadone or leave the country. I was convinced I was distend to die in my condo alone. With a needle in my arm.

 If you want to be clean just keep trying and trying it can happen. Man I hope I make it 2years but I will be happy just for one more month.

Was offered a who free gram today and said no. Packed my guitar and walked away. I was so proud of my self.

God I'm so happy for you please don't be a stranger.

Well gets to you to us to we
Its just water now though. But cheers you are now my hero.

The guy who use to be hero 1

[tui (OP)]

Hero, my brother!

Rad to hear from you! Every day clean is a blessing, no need to look further ahead. You are doing so well. But then, it sounds like you have some Divine protection going on. ;-)

Man, it is so good to know you are on a healing journey and there are so many possibilities ahead. You have got so much wisdom and kindness to share with this world, hard to do that when you're all fucked up on heroin.

Love your ways my old friend!

Enjoy your freedom. :-)

<3

[Lolleedee]

Great to see you doing so well, Tui!!!  I was wondering if you could share what exactly you learned about yourself and your addiction or addiction in general when you had your Iboga treatment.  If it is too personal to share, I completely understand!

I hope that you drop in every now and then!  Congrats on your sobriety!  Much love to you!

[tui (OP)]

Heya Lolleedee 

Haha that is a big question!

I had always felt separate and alone. I used to believe life was this pointless thing where you are born and die and that was it.

During the treatment I gained a sense of connection and one-ness and meaning. I felt the chain of my ancestors reaching back through time into the furtherest past and reaching through me into the future.

When I woke up from the treatment, I was no longer filled with despair and anxiety and depression. I was truly happy and at peace in a way I had never felt in my life. I was actually weeping with happiness. It was like I came home to myself and discovered the magic and wonder of life. All in one night...

And the happiness has lasted. I think that's part of why I've had no cravings. Drugs just don't make sense to me now. There's no pain to kill or sadness or anxiety to escape.

Saying that, I have been on a journey of healing and self-discovery ever since and I imagine I will be on it for the rest of my life. Ibogaine opened the doorway to that for me. I imagine it offers everyone something different. Whatever it is your unique you-ness is needing. 

Iboga is a very wise plant.
 

[Chip]

I found this video after searching and watching quite a few on Iboga. Tui, would you agree that it is accurate ?

you don't have to watch it as I posted it because it seemed plausible to me and they break it down.

I also read that it's NMDA action may be responsible for the attenuation of withdrawal symptoms.

it makes sense. I'd use it to stop smoking and to finish my Methadone but I don't have the funds at this point so I'll try it the hard way.

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[hanna]

So good to read that you are still clean after all these years! All the best to you girl!

[tui (OP)]

I found this video after searching and watching quite a few on Iboga. Tui, would you agree that it is accurate ?

you don't have to watch it as I posted it because it seemed plausible to me and they break it down.

I also read that it's NMDA action may be responsible for the attenuation of withdrawal symptoms.

it makes sense. I'd use it to stop smoking and to finish my Methadone but I don't have the funds at this point so I'll try it the hard way.

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Hey Chipper, thanks for posting that. Sounds pretty accurate to me! Such an amazing experience.

Hope you are well and life is being good to you.

[tui (OP)]

So good to read that you are still clean after all these years! All the best to you girl!

Thank you lovely Hanna! I feel very very lucky.

Hope you are feeling happy and healthy.

[Chip]

Thanks Tui, I'm also opiate free now too so life is much easier and far more comfortable.