Jumping off methadone without withdrawal . What's wrong with me

[Chip]

Me ? I have stopped injecting and am far too scared of full on withdrawals although I do see the merit of your idea.

This will be my 4th or 5th taper and I know them well.

I also know that they get progressively harder so unfortunately I just have to wait it out and go slowly.

But the total amount of misery is a given and I choose the long way and I will do it - i don't want to be hitting the clinic in my 60's.

There are setbacks too, like attending a funeral made me feel extra crappy so I went backwards and hadon't a little extra.

Like I remind myself, life keeps getting in the way.

I just can't afford enough dope to cover me for at least 2 or 3 weeks whilst the Methadone works it's way out and I'd probably end up with a bigger habit as I know that I'd always have more than I need, I'd rather get oral Morphine but don't think I could get enough off the street or be able to afford it.

Thanks for trying to help though.

[Snoop]

Hey Chips....

How much Oral M would you theoretically need to transition?

I've wondered the 'specifics'  when it comes to transition, if it's IR or ER that would better suffice?

I. Am. Impatient.

I really WANT off MD. No BS.

But even today I was floating the idea of leaving it behind since I'm a week in already. But I can't realistically carry on like this for a few more weeks without losing my shit BIGTIME.

Work, Family Life, Kids and the rest don't get out of the way for ANYTHING. Id need a proper getaway. And not the CO. Jail kind.

I hate when I realize I'm trapped and it may be easier to just die with it. Maybe if I started doing it right again? Go back up,  and remain.

Man....  I just don't know.

[Chip]

Supposedly, it's milligram for milligram but that's IV but you'd have to re-dose twice if it's IR.

You'd have to recalculate that to it's oral B/A and make sure it's the ER or -contin prep.

My friend takes 2 or 3 60 mg MS Contin for his issues and that should hold someone on 60 mg 'done but I am only hazarding a guess and from personal experience.

[Esoteric Anhydride]

I hate when I realize I'm trapped and it may be easier to just die with it. Maybe if I started doing it right again? Go back up,  and remain.

Man....  I just don't know.

Hey brother, you're not trapped -- it's way easier now than it was 20 years ago, we have more tools now and a better understanding now.

But here's the kicker: as soon as you start chipping, you just pissed away everyone's help who got you clean; so if you pull it off, don't fuck it up..

Don't take that to mean that I don't think you're motivated, cos I do think you're motivated, just feeling stuck.

You really don't have to take this to your grave post-MMT. I'm surviving on nothing but ultram and small amounts of lop right now (less than 40mg/day); I left the klinik in August at 52mg.. Suboxone was key, and microdosing that made it near painless.

I don't have a phone of my own right now, but if u shoot me a number, it'd be great to shoot the shit..

[Thoms]

@Snoop it's been a minute since we got to chill together bro. Hit me up yo