Gah!! An opportunity has arisen.. Should I?

[FlorAtive (OP)]

I got in contact with a friend from back home to say hello. Truly that was the intention.. Plus I just sent my breakup letter to my girlfriend of 10 years and this "friend" happens to be a close female that I enjoy talking to. Out of thin air, she mentioned it.............. I have a few Morph 60s I can send you. SOB!! I've been craving and dreaming about any opiate for weeks. I haven't been able to get my hands on anything more than 20mg hydrocodone which doesn't even tickle. After she sends these.. I truly will no longer have access to ANYTHING else for a long time. I'm racking my brain at this decision and would like some input from other addicts. I can get 120-180mg MS in a matter of days taped to the inside of a letter. (Does that seem okay to do to save on shipping?) It would be 2 or 3 peach MS60s... I want them terribly bad... LIKE BAD BAD. Whats your opinions? I'm currently living with my grandparents to help get control of my 10 year addiction in case you're not familiar with my case. And I'm the mail getter, so that isn't a worry.

[bignasty]

Hell yeah, get them! Why wouldn't you get them....am I missing something? Do you know how to IV MScontins? If so, you could get up to 6-12 doses (depending on your tolerance) outta those 3 pills. Just try to spread out your doses so you don't develop any WD symptoms when you run out.

[theSWPK]

Have her pUT them in a small zip lock bag and flatten them with a book. Then wrap in 2 pieces of paper like a folded letter and use a business envelope. They aren't going to be searching regular busineas envelopes due to the gigantic volume of them that pass thru every day.
Also have her send it to a fake name and don't open for 2 days, that way if the feds bust down your door you can claim that you got someone else's mail and didn't open it and haven't had the time to return to sender.

[Thoms]

Get the morphine. But who the hell sends their gf a breakup letter after ten years. I mean to each their own but damn dog, that's a tad rough.

[bignasty]

You should write "Return to sender" and be cautious if anyone tries to get you to sign for anything but otherwise, just open it up and enjoy your morphine. No need to wait 2 days to open it.
I doubt the feds would get involved over 180 mgs of morphine. Worse thing that'll happen is somebody that works for/at the post office feeling and stealing your pills.

[Z]

I've never had a problem with getting drugs in the mail domestically.  Not for small, letter sized amounts.  You could flatten it, and glue together a birthday card to make a fake back if you're worried.  It wouldn't stand up to inspection, but if they x-ray it they will find it anyways.  The better question is should you?  Will it set back your recovery that you seem to have gone to a great deal of effort with so far?  What will you do if your grandparents catch you stoned?

A break up letter is harsh.  If I was her I would kick your ass.  Be a big person and talk to her at least.  How would you like to be broken up with? 

[FlorAtive (OP)]

Thanks for all the feed back guys. The letter is necessary. She's too emotionally unstable for over the phone or anything. I'm in another state now and said I'd only be gone for a month. Now I'm working on the decision of not returning home. In 10 years her and I have been through a few "breakups" and my dumb ass always went back because she's quite the manipulative one. In person was always a no go.. Either she became violent (don't ever teach your girl how to fight.. what a fucking mistake), or she would use every emotional tool at her disposal and start trying to make promises.. I'm too weak for that stuff. Over the phone can't be done because she can't have this number that I'm staying at, plus she shuts down and stops listening to any sense of reason. Period. Been there done that too many times in all fields guys.. The letter is the only way. I also haven't had any contact with her in about a month. She's expecting it.
For the morphs.. I'd love to, but now she's saying I have to wait till she gets more. I'm sure she has 8mg dilaudid I'm tempted to ask for. I'm not gonna boot ever again. I can't do that to my own psyche. I read in a couple places that putting 4mg up the nose with no tolerance should be enjoyed. I wonder if that's true. I never did Ds without a tolerance.. Hell I've never done anything without a tolerance. *But you did in the beginning...* I don't remember those days. And for screwing up my progress thus far, I'm justifying like a SOB. I also will not over-do anything if I DO get it.. I just want enough to get a tingle and to alleviate my pains from my new not-so-fun farm job. I can't get enough days off in a row to recover.

[holladimsum]

"I just want a tingle"  yeah, me too

unfortunately I always end up with more than I bargained for

[FlorAtive (OP)]

I actually appreciate that comment.. What makes you get more than you bargained for? I'd like to add some more fear to my hesitation if you don't mind.

[bonedust]

^^^I'm gonna take a wild guess and say that holla meant that getting more than they bargained for meant that they ended up with a shitty habit.

I could be wrong though, it has happened before.

[FreedomOrBust]

if your planning to eat them, you will probably be disappointed.  120-180mg of oral morphine has about ~30% bioavailability.

as for shooting, if you do that, it will probably feel pretty damn good, but it might put you back on the merry-go-round.

it's a booger all around, ain't it?

[FlorAtive (OP)]

The money subject is the biggest situation.. my girl can only accept thru walmart money transfer which is gonna cost, plus shipment to me. Sooo.. Just for 2 would cost me about $62.50. No thanks. Unless I use snail mail and send cash, it would still be $50. Still no thanks. I ordered 5lbs of poppy seeds for $15. I'd rather have a friend who'd kindly just send me a couple MS's out of their >200 supply in remembrance of our solid friendship. But greed is a biotch in these parts. These 'friends' get 180-230 30mg oxys, 90 2mg xanax, 180 MS 60s, 230 300mg gabapentin, however many flexeril, and god knows what else. I know 5 people with that same lineup and they still cry pore mouth when every oxy is sold for $30 a piece and MS's are sold for $20. wtf.