That 40 + Benzos was just off the top of my head and based on my own experiences/ If it IS too much I am glad to know it.
(...)
And yes, being the hopeless junkie I am, If I can get then to give her some GOOD drugs and a big supply of them that will not miss a few if I pinch some. One selfish thing I learned about being around cancer patients is that their doctore don't generally worry about how many pills they pop and write for more.
If this goes on for months I'll stop taking the buprenorphine and use some of her short term opiods to ease the trasnition off them.
A guy can dream right?
Hey, you aren't some "hopeless junkie", you are some BRAVE junkie (even if the concept of "brave junkie" seem to be an oxymoron)!!!
You are trying to do your best, against all odds, as you have your own fight to struggle.
I do really wish I were in position to help you one way or another, but I'm afraid, I don't have any particular advice by my hand,
since there were wiser heads than me racking their brains/puzzled over it or how it calls...
I'd also recommend to hang on/stick to that establish regimen (methadone), as the priority is changing your Mother's negative attitude-I'm not sure what kind of meds would help the most distinctly. Maybe benzos as a some "ad hoc" help, before antidepressants are going to develope their full blown potency.
Does your Mother have someone (relatives, friends) She's really trusting and reckons with the person's opinion?
If I'm wrong in it and telling craps you're smart/alerted enought to ignore it.
Anyway, I do really feel for you and your Mom,
don't beat yourself for your "monkey"is trying to mess in.
Hope things straighten to you and your Mom, so far it's possible.