Hey for all you fellas on test and MMT, have you guys had any trouble with your dose not lasting as long, or needing to up your dose? It feels like now my dose isn't holding me, by 6pm my eyes start to water really bad and I will start yawning, and feel a bit restless. It has just seemed to be a bit worse over the past month or 2. Before I got arrested last March I was on 280mg and now I am on 90 so I am kind of wondering if my tolerance is slowly creeping back.
I was off everything for 4 months after getting arrested, and when I got back on I got a tiny glow the first 2-3 weeks, I think most people do. It just seems that I have been trying to deal with depression symptoms for the past year, and the Test has made it better, I feel a bit better, but I still have very little motivation and don't get out of bed very often. I work out a bit everyday and have been able to stick with my diet and a lot of other things have gotten better but it still seems like I am fighting myself to do everything, and feel like I am depressed, and have been trying to figure out what the deal is.
The rest of this post is just me venting about being depressed and doesn't have any questions and is completely irrelevant to what we have been talking about, just fyi.
I have been taking 100-150mgs of benedryl every day for the past year and stopped taking it last week, and there has been a definite improvement on energy and not wanting to sleep all day, but now I can't really sleep at all. I have been trying to figure out what is going on which is why I got on test, and I was hoping it would be an instant fix but it only helped a bit, it seemed to take care of the symptoms that the low t were causing but I can't shake being depressed, and I really don't want to take anti-depressants.
Maybe I will get off probation next month, and not worrying about going to jail all the time will be the lift I needed and I will start feeling normal. Plus going on a month or 2 binge to get skinny will most definitely help my confidence, I fucking hate being fat, I finally have some muscle tone and have lost the weight I gained from my first month on test, I just can't seem to lose anymore because I haven't been doing cardio like i need to just lifting. I am thinking about moving out of CO which is good and shitty at the same time so maybe change will help as well.
My best friends are in Okla where I am planning on moving to so I will have people to hang out with that are like brothers to me so I will have more to do, but at the same time oklahoma fucking sucks there isn't shit to do, no mountains, only sports team is the thunder, the weather sucks ass, the laws are bullshit(even though i didn't get arrested there when I was committing multiple felonies a day) weed is illegal even though I haven't smoked since on probation. So idk if moving is the best idea, but if I move I can keep all my stuff with my family and leave the country which is what I really want to do.