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Core Topics => Drugs => GABAergics => Topic started by: Strapped420 on January 11, 2016, 05:33:32 PM
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Hello. I get 90 bar month. But i have a bad feeling i'm done.
So yeah. I take like 2 bars when i awake. And prolly 4 more ATLEAST throughout the day.
So i am really mentally. Just, Fucked.
Never did it this long b4. It has been about like almost 2 weeks. So Here is what i noticed:
EXTREME paranoia, RAGE. I was downstairs the other day with my buddy, It was dark out.
I kept hearing a vehicle driving in my front yard. I was crying never had this happen b4 these noises would not stop,
I am always going to get food and im drinking a shit ton of red top milk.
And i am So fucking sick of this. EVERY month. Get scrippy. And i go on blackout for 3 weeks.
Anyway. Extreme shaking. But i think it's cold, But idk ppl say u can die from this so i had ppl chill and i am alone now.
It's like a mental /psychological torture. I'm 22. Is it cus i am younger no siezeing? I just want to be able to gtfo where I go.
And have my subs and not be hurting form one thing/another/
Be safe =(
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Coming off of benzo's is the most terrifying feeling in the world. The paranoid and anxiety is so extreme you cannot describe it.
You sound like you're in bad shape. The good news about benzo wd is that it doesn't last long, like 3-4 days...and once it's over you sort of never want to touch another benzo again.
The only time I ever stayed sober for a long time was after a cold turkey benzo kick...I decided I never wanted to deal with that agony..I can honestly say its the one drug I've learned my lesson with.
At this stage in my life I never take more than 1mg a day of any benzo for any reason. You are so young to be going through this...be careful...I know someone who did xanax for years and one day just had a seizure out of nowhere...now she doesn't have any front teeth.
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3 or 4 days? I kicked at varying degrees for at least 3 months coming off benzos...
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I've never done a c/t benzo kick (thankfully).
But I was gonna ask the same thing. 3-4 days? I'm guessing that's from a short-acting benzo like Xanax?
I can't help but think a longer-acting benzo would produce a longer kick. Isn't that the case?
And as far as shorter-acting benzos like Xanax, is 3-4 days typical? Or is that just your experience, Junkette?
Good luck with it, Strapped. Sounds horrible. Be safe, and please get medical help if need be. Seizures are dangerous, even for someone not prone to them.
Also, having a seizure makes it more likely that you'll have another in the future. It's like your brain's seizure threshold goes down. What I read at least.
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I think 304 days for something like Xanex is just for getting out of the "Danger Zone" but If i remember reading somewhere with benzo's it takes a LONG time for your anxiety levels to feel normal again.
I did notices increased anxiety, agitation, and paranoia for about two weeks after quiting etizolam, but I was low dosing it. maybe 4-6mg a day spread out in 1-2mg doses. then i tapered down to 0.5mg a day.
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benzos are best enjoyed where they are rarely used.
once in a blue moon is the go.
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benzos are best enjoyed where they are rarely used.
once in a blue moon is the go.
^This 100%
OP, at 22 you are setting yourself up for a lot of confoosion.
I know it must seem 40 and 50 are in the remote future, but time effectively speeds up as you get older.
And it's a one-way trip; there's no going back to the invulnerability of 22.
Benzos impair memory, and some of that shit's permanent.
I really overdid it when I was kicking, did my month of alprazolam the weekend I stepped down from methadone to hydrocodone.
I was SO worried about wds
I ate my xanax like M&Ms.
I had managed my 'done taper so well that the drop to hydro was just a blip
But the benzo tear was nearly catastrophic
Aside from the lost weekend
(I actually had a xanax mustache)
I couldn't remember shit...about anything.
I remember lying there, practically being able to feel encephalopathy develop, like wormholes in old books
Started writing out my life (to recall it)...then lost the damn notebook I was writing in!
Oh, it was pathetic
Forgot learning someone close to me died
Forgot almost all short-term memories
Lost the when in when events of the last year (that I did remember) happened
Forgot the names of things
alzheimers.png
I thought all the damage was permanent, but luckily (and it was so bad I DO feel lucky) I was able to recover, although there's some permanent impairment.
And I haven't completely quit benzos, either (although I didn't forget to quit).
I've gotten a small number the past few months due to the stress of Grace's injuries and moving twice.
Did switch from alprazolam to lorazepam
No bliss despite their double equivalency, but adequate fearkillers
and easier to quit. Been off a week and had NO wds whatsoever.
WIW
$0.02
Good luck, OP
Hope you are able to get off/stay off the benzos is a tough row to hoe
Reezy's right, not just about the anxiety, but all the other ancillary bs from quitting takes a long time to work itself out.
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Thanks for replys/
Still going, Took 7 Hydros last REAl opiate had was dope, been on Subutex since. So i am going to city 5 hour bus ride.
ITs been rough. Like It's absolutely brick here in NY. Had insane wind storm last night, Woke me up.
Just hope i can get stuff filled down there. Anyway. Im okay. Cannot believe its been at-least 7-8 days
i am proud of myself.
Need to make serious changes. Im not going to keep being like this. I always end up doing stupid shit not remembering it. Fights, Stealing, just
being a scum.
But that's NOT me. I feel okay. I had a splinter in finger, it caused a infection. Need to ask for Clindamyacin.
My body hurts, Those hydro's had me feeling good. Not anymore.
Peace out. Again, TY for reply's.