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Core Topics => Drugs => Opiates & Opioids => Topic started by: Zoops on April 26, 2016, 04:35:21 PM
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Just wanted everyone to know that I cancelled my latest order to the RC supplier. Too scared, I guess.
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I found a good domestic one, a .com!
its really hit or miss out there ane just happened to luck out
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Zoops if you're looking for etiz it's out there but rare, a lot more rare then it used to be. And I always bought powder, it's just so much damn cheaper. I'd recommend looking at some new triazlo benzos. Those are everywhere from US domestic suppliers.
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Zoops if you're looking for etiz it's out there but rare, a lot more rare then it used to be. And I always bought powder, it's just so much damn cheaper. I'd recommend looking at some new triazlo benzos. Those are everywhere from US domestic suppliers.
yeah man I sampled some clonazolam about a month ago. Fuck 1.5mg put me out the game for like 36 hours for real. (with PST also that might have influenced it some).
I'm more interested in substituted cathinones.
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yeah man I sampled some clonazolam about a month ago. Fuck 1.5mg put me out the game for like 36 hours for real. (with PST also that might have influenced it some).
I'm more interested in substituted cathinones.
nothing will ever compare to my love for bkMDMA
NOTHING
(and this 2-oxo-pce aint much of an MXE replacement)
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TTA, you might want to check out dibutylone then, if you liked methylone. VERY euphoric (and moreish too). But smooth as shit with no nasty comedown like that 4-fluoropentedrone i was doing on Thursday night.
I just recently got a couple grams of 5-methoxy methylone (think bk-MMDMA). I thought it would be very euphoric and happy like methylone, but instead it's more like acid - challenging and introspective. You have three oxygen atoms bonded to the phenyl ring in that compound, so it's a bit more akin to mescaline, I guess (or the cathinone equivalent of mescaline).
I plan on taking a good-sized dose in about 10 minutes.
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I have been so stressed lately I put together the money and got 500mg of diclazepam.
I think I lost 4 days to that. It's only been the last few days that I feel as normal as I usually feel.
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I sure do miss Methylone. That stuff was seriously amazing! I tried Pentylone and Butylone, but they didn't compare. As far as MXE goes, I still have a couple grams kicking around. MXE can get very, very strange. I've been out of the RC scene for a bit, probably around the time apvp was banned, so I really don't know what is being vended these days.
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After getting to do MDA, MDMA, and Ketamine last night
All I can think of is how much the "originals" truly kick ass
The few bumps of 2-Oxo-PCE were nice but a mere sidenote
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God DAMN that 5-methoxy-methylone is NOT fun! I took probably about a gram (orally) throughout the afternoon yesterday. When it first kicked in, my body got all stiff and twitchy. After about an hour of that, the twitchiness stopped and I got sort of calm, and it was nice for a little while. I closed my eyes and laid back in my La-Z-Boy recliner for a bit then. All sorts of colors and shapes flying by my field of vision with eyes closed. I had some pretty crazy thoughts, like not nice crazy thoughts, about ripping people apart and eating their flesh. These things just popped into my psyche unannounced. Then another wave of tenseness and twitchiness would come, then calm again, for about 3 cycles of that, till it wore off quite suddenly around 7pm.
My leg muscles are all sore now, from being tensed up all afternoon yesterday.
I also developed a very bad stutter/stammer while under the influence of that stuff. I tried to talk on the phone but couldn't hardly get a sentence out. That's gone now, thankfully.
This substance is not a good one. Two thumbs down.
I think it has way too much of a stimulant type vibe to it. But not in a nice stimulant way (not like cocaine or amphetamine). If you have any underlying mental illness, especially schizoaffective disorders, steer WAY clear of this shit! You could end up in prison for the rest of your life, or dead.
Next time, I'm going to order dibutylone again. That one was pretty o.k. 4-fluoro pentedrone was way too fiendish for me, but did produce some nice euphoria. Dibutylone wears off and doesn't leave you fiending for more. Well, not really. ;)
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God DAMN that 5-methoxy-methylone is NOT fun! I took probably about a gram (orally) throughout the afternoon yesterday. When it first kicked in, my body got all stiff and twitchy. After about an hour of that, the twitchiness stopped and I got sort of calm, and it was nice for a little while. I closed my eyes and laid back in my La-Z-Boy recliner for a bit then. All sorts of colors and shapes flying by my field of vision with eyes closed. I had some pretty crazy thoughts, like not nice crazy thoughts, about ripping people apart and eating their flesh. These things just popped into my psyche unannounced. Then another wave of tenseness and twitchiness would come, then calm again, for about 3 cycles of that, till it wore off quite suddenly around 7pm.
My leg muscles are all sore now, from being tensed up all afternoon yesterday.
I also developed a very bad stutter/stammer while under the influence of that stuff. I tried to talk on the phone but couldn't hardly get a sentence out. That's gone now, thankfully.
This substance is not a good one. Two thumbs down.
I think it has way too much of a stimulant type vibe to it. But not in a nice stimulant way (not like cocaine or amphetamine). If you have any underlying mental illness, especially schizoaffective disorders, steer WAY clear of this shit! You could end up in prison for the rest of your life, or dead.
Next time, I'm going to order dibutylone again. That one was pretty o.k. 4-fluoro pentedrone was way too fiendish for me, but did produce some nice euphoria. Dibutylone wears off and doesn't leave you fiending for more. Well, not really. ;)
Id really recommend 2-oxo for you
all the tripiness/CEV's you can handle while being entirely lucid, while reality vibrates around you
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I'm not really a huge fan of dissociatives. I like to be able to act normally while being high. That's why I like opiates so much (and, to a slightly lesser extent, stimulants like cocaine and amphetamines).
and damn if I'm not sore ALL OVER MY ENTIRE BODY today. That fucking 5-MeO-methylone made all my muscles tense up all afternoon yesterday, creating soreness today. I guess I might have gotten somewhat of a "workout" from it though. Which, combined with my new testosterone replacement regimen, could be beneficial.
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I like opiates and anything that's a Benzene ring fused to a Diazepine ring
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Yep yep yep yep yep.
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yeah man I sampled some clonazolam about a month ago. Fuck 1.5mg put me out the game for like 36 hours for real. (with PST also that might have influenced it some).
I'm more interested in substituted cathinones.
@Zoops Clonazolam, and to an even greater extent flubrazolam, are super-strong, amnesia-inducing, and also take a long time to come up, which is an overall bad RC benzo trifecta (especially with opiates involved, it goes without saying).
I've tried them both and prefer the clonazolam, mainly for safety reasons, but don't like either because a one-hour come-up makes for a crummy benzodiazepine in my book. I would say they are an order of magnitude more dangerous than RC etizolam, which of course is less predictable than the commercial variety. The diclazepam and flubrazopam seem much safer, though I missed the boat on them.
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nothing will ever compare to my love for bkMDMA
NOTHING
(and this 2-oxo-pce aint much of an MXE replacement)
I like methylone but I love some 4-mec. Mmm
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I keep tellin y'all ya need to get some dibutylone in your LIFE! I wouldn't recommend it if it wasn't totally all around kick ass. Sweet euphoria with no crazy-ass paranoid, homicidal or just plain nonsensical delusions. And the comedown is nice and smooth with no soul-crushing depression. At least for me it is.
Really nice,
although a bit more-ish.
:o
How could it not be?
(I got 3.5g coming in tomorrow's post) :))
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I keep tellin y'all ya need to get some dibutylone in your LIFE! I wouldn't recommend it if it wasn't totally all around kick ass. Sweet euphoria with no crazy-ass paranoid, homicidal or just plain nonsensical delusions. And the comedown is nice and smooth with no soul-crushing depression. At least for me it is.
Really nice,
although a bit more-ish.
:o
How could it not be?
(I got 3.5g coming in tomorrow's post) :))
I miss doing Stims, good times, stuff crumbles my perception of what's real now. It has at times lasted more than a month from one night's binge.
Sometimes I get set off from seemingly silly things. For example walking into the kitchen and the wood grain or cabinet stain shade is off, tiny details seem wrong, then BAM. Intense horror. Are my surroundings real or recreation?
Dextroamp binge + near death experience = dissociative disorder.
Sometimes things seem too ironic to be real, but I've learned to deal with it. Synchronicity delusions.
For example, (at time of research) the only pharmaceutical that showed promise in treating depersonalization/derealization disorder was... naltrexone. Fucking come on now.
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I miss doing Stims, good times, stuff crumbles my perception of what's real now. It has at times lasted more than a month from one night's binge.
Sometimes I get set off from seemingly silly things. For example walking into the kitchen and the wood grain or cabinet stain shade is off, tiny details seem wrong, then BAM. Intense horror. Are my surroundings real or recreation?
Dextroamp binge + near death experience = dissociative disorder.
Sometimes things seem too ironic to be real, but I've learned to deal with it. Synchronicity delusions.
For example, (at time of research) the only pharmaceutical that showed promise in treating depersonalization/derealization disorder was... naltrexone. Fucking come on now.
That's exactly what I'm talking about when I say "just plain nonsensical delusions." Can't you just know it's not real? - That feeling that it's all a computer simulation, I mean after the stuff wears off and you get your feet firmly planted in opiated reality/space again?
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It just don't jive for me.
I had a very bad psychosis episode on vyvanse. This one topped them all for me. The big daddy psychotic break. Involving audible, visual as well as tactile hallucinations. Pushed me to break.
I just don't ever ever want to be in a depersonalized state if I can avoid it. It's a cold and lonely way to live. I could see it being fun for a few hours on a trip, but when you've been that way for months it loses any appeal. I though I was insane, took over 2 years to find out what DPD was, I thought I was alone in it. It's hard to explain to someone that you live life from an emotionless 3rd person point of view and have a broken sense of ego. "I" starts to lose any meaning. If you read up on the different personal accounts of depersonalization disorder, you'll see what I mean.
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It just don't jive for me.
I had a very bad psychosis episode on vyvanse. This one topped them all for me. The big daddy psychotic break. Involving audible, visual as well as tactile hallucinations. Pushed me to break.
I just don't ever ever want to be in a depersonalized state if I can avoid it. It's a cold and lonely way to live. I could see it being fun for a few hours on a trip, but when you've been that way for months it loses any appeal. I though I was insane, took over 2 years to find out what DPD was, I thought I was alone in it. It's hard to explain to someone that you live life from an emotionless 3rd person point of view and have a broken sense of ego. "I" starts to lose any meaning. If you read up on the different personal accounts of depersonalization disorder, you'll see what I mean.
Impossible for me to understand losing touch with WHO and even WHAT I am. Does it feel like you're an alien living in a human body? Like bodily functions (pissing, shitting, eating, sex) feel like they are happening to someone, nay, someTHING else? That could be a valuable perspective for some purposes. Like if we were going to communicate with an alien race of intelligent beings, we might want to consult some folks with DPD first.
Your name sounds like a strange meaningless word, I bet too. My name is strange enough already. I can only imagine that.
My ego and selse of self is so firmly entrenched in my psyche that it would be impossible for me to experience that. Being rooted firmly in ones' body can be a blessing or a curse. But at the same time, while I feel so deeply connected with my physical being, I also feel firmly connected with all the negative perceptions I have of myself.
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For me when I'm going through an episode of dpd, I feel completely dissociated from my sense of self. You're correct about how my name seems to lose its attachment. It feels as if your standing in a room in the very back of your head. Standing there watching your own life as an uninvolved spectator. Often it will feel like I have little control of my actions. During these episodes, derealization can kick in from specific triggers. Speaking in front of a crowd from a podium is the heaviest trigger. I start to feel that if I suddenly stop speaking will the crowd even notice? I begin to question these people's existence, as if I am the only actual person and the rest are fake.
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When I was in my first inpatient treatment, waaaaaay back befo' summa yall wuz even BONE... in 1998, I took the MMPI, which is a battery of about 500 true or false questions, some of them seem very strange, but you're supposed to answer them all and you get a very good summary of what type of personality you have.
I can't remember exactly what my "letters" were, but there was a "J" in there and what was interesting to me was that I came out a hair on the extrovert side in the introvert/extrovert scale. Just a hair. The psychologist also said I could have some traits of a shizoaffective personality, and also am prone to "magical thinking." I think synchronicity delusions fall into that category. I always seem to note weird co-incidences (or are they?) in my day-to-day life.
So I can relate somewhat.