You sound like youre a fair candidate for methadone. Then again if Suboxone gets your rocks in a line, then better hooked on that than done. I like suboxone, it works for me, it didnt earlier in my life, one day i plan to use again, but only when i afford a steady pure supply. If you're going to "chip" or shoot the sub, might as well go for done. Why can't you stay clean?